What’s Emerging

The pattern is clear…it’s challenging to write when I’m cooking on stuff, especially career related.  Sitting with the very question that precipitated this blog,  “What do I plan to do with my one wild and precious life?” (a deep bow to Mary Oliver), deep in the bottom of my personal U (a deep bow to Otto Scharmer), I’ve been given the perfect conditions and container – the mythological fire and cauldron – for transformation. 

Days of boiling over.  Other days being chilled to the bone with anxiety and self-doubt.  Some days of barely perceptible heat, coasting on a status quo, denying my knowing.  Most days, simmering, trusting in the mix of it all.

In the last month or so I’ve been a participant in Heather Plett’s inaugural Mandala Discovery online course.  Today after yoga and brunch with my dear yoga teacher-sisters, I went to my studio to make some mandalas and see what might emerge.  Over the weeks we’ve explored themes like play, chaos, surrender and journey.  Seems like every time I get out the compass and coloured markers there’s a little, or a lot, of all of this going on in every creation. 

Today, after the first “it doesn’t count” drawing, I created a circle with a question mark in the centre, dividing the circle in half.  It could have easily become a yin-yang symbol, earlier suggested by Heather as a way to find the balance through chaos, but I took a different tack and began to write questions on the left side.  Questions about my “what next?”  Questions like:

 “What is my calling?’

“Can I be true?”

“What brings me deep joy?”

“How do I serve You?”

“How do I partner well with others – women and men?”

“May I?”

“Can I?”

“Am I?”

“Will I succeed?”

“What if I don’t?”

“What’s success?”

“Does it matter?”

“What is enough?”

When I came to the right side of the question mark (hmmm, the right side, that evokes its own inquiry) I thought about leaving it blank, the spaciousness of not knowing….not committing?  And then something else came.  My practice is to date and quickly write some fast impressions about my process on the backside of page.  Here’s what emerged:

Colour

Integrity

Wholeness

Vivid

Possibilities on the other side of the questions

Not yet named

Not yet answered

But alive with colour

About Katharine Weinmann

living and leading with courage, clarity, compassion and creativity
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4 Responses to What’s Emerging

  1. Cynthia says:

    Hi Katharine,
    As usual I both enjoy and am challenged by your blog. As you can imagine, being a student again raises many self doubts and the question arises: “what am I going to do when this time is over?” But to reframe the question, does it have to be over?
    Like Canada, people are running ragged from their jobs and expressing their lack of time and meaning. But I have time to ‘literally’ smell the roses in my neighbourhood, and really delve into issues that are important to me.
    Yes, I’ll leave Australia at the end of the year but I intend to continue this life of learning.
    I see you as someone who IS succeeding. You have so many gifts to offer so I want to say – just keep doing what you’re doing, sharing your colourful journey and talents and thereby Inspiring and teaching others, like me.
    I look forward to creating a mandala with you.
    Cynthia

    • Across land and seas, a warm hello to you, Cynthia, with my thanks for your kind, inspiring and thoughtful post. I like your reframe…and for me, know for a long time it’s been about flying in new skies. Still a bittersweetness about it all…natural, of course. I look forward to mandala making when you return. Namaste from me and many we know who hold you close.

      • Terri Blair Maracle says:

        Sounds to me like you are on the verge of entering a new phase of life….always exciting if you choose to see it as an adventure. A while back, I signed up for the newsletter from ‘Sophia Leadership’ (which I found via your web site) and the other day it came with an invitation to attend a “Gather the Women” conference in Peterborough in late August. Well, my friend and I are hoping to attend. So, thank you for connecting me with someone I don’t know, but who is about to cross my path. Life works in mysterious ways

      • Good reading between the lines, Terri.
        Heather is a dear friend. You’ll enjoy this gathering and they will most definitely enjoy and appreciate you. Of that I am most certain. Here’s to Life and Her mystery. Warmly…

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